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Wednesday, September 23, 2015

32 Years of my life, well what can I say… ?!

32 Years of my life, well what can I say… ?!
I'm so blessed to have two beautiful son, proud mother, happy wife.
Nothing really matters as long as i'm with them. With them, i have everything.
Thanks to Allah Swt, for all the blessing. Always giving me chance to be better,
do better, through the hard times and good times. Even there is so many people try to bring me down, even though the closest relatives. But YOU always back me up, in a way that I can only understand. In this 32, we age not by years but by stories, and I through a lot more than I deserve and i do believe its because Allah Swt care for me and my family.
Growing old is mandatory, growing up its optional.
And you'll never to old to reinvent yourself. Thanks for all, God bless you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me !! :DD

12 Terrifying Things Children Said To Babysitters While Their Parents Were Out. These Gave Me Chills.


1. A few years ago, I was putting my friend's daughter to bed for the night. She was about 3 at the time, and she was fighting going to sleep. She asked me why she had to go to bed, and I said "Because it is late and its time for little girls to get a good night rest." She then pointed at nothing across the room and said "What about that little girl?"

2. Two years ago, I was looking through my elementary school yearbook with my 5 year old cousin, when we were at a page with a 2nd grade class, she pointed to a boy's photo and said "that looks just like Nicolas!". When I asked who Nicolas was she just said "The boy in my closet" and keep on looking at the picture. I almost died.

3. Little kids know stuff, man. My niece is 4 and talks about her "older sister" constantly. She is always talking to her too. She is an only child and has no idea her mother had a previous pregnancy a few years back that was a mid term loss. Weird me out something major.

4. I was heading to the bathroom one the second floor of my aunt's house when I saw my cousin April on the stairs. April was 4 yo and very animated. She was busy making funny faces while sitting on the stairs. I asked her what she was doing. She said "I'm copying the lady with the braid". I looked around, there was no one else but us. I asked "where is the lady April?" She pointed to a beam running parallel to the stairwell. I asked April, "what is the lady doing?" She said, "making funny faces". I smiled and started walking up the stairs again when April said something that stopped me in my tracks. April "her braids is around her neck". I turned back and asked April to repeat herself, April pointed, "the lady is hanging by her braid... She's making funny faces." Then April started making a face which I then realize was it someone gasping for air.

5. I was looking after Jack (A five year old) who said a man named Jacob who dressed like a lumber jack was sitting next to me on the couch. He must have seen the shock in my face, and said "Don't worry, he doesn't have any arms."

6. My little nephew used to talk about a woman who would visit his room at night. He said she wore a red dress, that her name was Frannie and that she would sing to him.. and that she floats.

7. I'm babysit a few kids while their parents were at the movie. I put the youngest kid (4) to sleep and watched TV till the parents came home. The next day the parents called. According to the 4 yo kid I stood in the doorway and stared him for a very long time, smilinh. I was confused i didn't know what to say.

8. I was cuddling my friend's 3 yo son and he said, very seriously "I promise I won't ever chew on your bones. I promise".

9. I lost my boyfriend to a stray bullet a few months back and when I went to visit his little cousin a few days after it happened, he came up to me while I was crying. He asked why I was crying and I told him that I missed my boyfriend. He gets this confused look on his face and then says ''Why? He's ssitting on the front porch.''.

10. Looking after my little cousin in Montana one night, and he started telling me about the ''Creeper Man'' who lives in his mom and dad's bedroom. He brings it up after he visits them. I made mistake once of asking what he looks like. He said ''Oh he doesn't have a face.''

12. One night I was babysitting my friend's children. The youngest (5 yo) drew a picture of a woman hanging from the ceiling, looked up at me and said ''she told me to draw this. She's coming for you, hidee''.

Note : Children could be so adorable but they also sometimes scare the hell out of adults person

Haha, have a great day mate !!

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Random Thoughts..

We will never know whats gonna happen in the next few years or even few days ahead.
We will never know whom we meet in the next few years or days.
We could never predict our future, but surely we can invent it.
God wants us meet few wrong people or few right person definitely to teach us something, 
either to warn us or to giving us new experience and knowledge. There will always be new lesson to be learn. 
There will always be something positive we can doctrine to ourselves in each  temptation of life that we've been through.

Who ever you meet, someone back from the past or someone new in future, you just gotta have faith that someway or somehow they are there for a reason. We all have chapters we would rather keep unpublished, every body have their own secret of life. Yessss, we just gotta have faith in what will be.

People come and go, no eternal life. Sometimes we need to forget some people from our past, because of one simple reason, they just don't belong in our future. Keep being strong ! That's the key
Being strong is to love someone in silent, to radiate happiness when we are unhappy, to forgive someone who doesn't deserve forgiveness, to stay calm in moments of despair, to show joy when we don't feel it, to smile when you want to cry, to make someone happy when our own heart is broken, to be silent when we feel like screaming our anguish, to comfort when we need to be comforted, and to have faith when sometimes we no longer believe..


Love...
Nilla

Psychology Today ^Love & Lust^

Its how intense sexual attraction is notorious for obliterating common sense and intuition in the most sensible people. Why? Lust is an altered state of consciousness programmed by the primal urge to procreate. Studies suggest that the brain in this phase is much like a brain on drugs. MRI scans illustrate that the same area lights up when an addict gets a fix of cocaine as when a person is experiencing the intense lust of physical attraction. Also in the early stage of a relationship, when the sex hormones are raging, lust is fueled by idealization and projection--you see what you hope someone will be or need them to be--rather than seeing the real person, flaws and all.
In my book on intuitive healing I discuss the difference between lust and love as well as techniques to enhance sexual wellness. Pure lust is based solely on physical attraction and fantasy--it often dissipates when the "real person" surfaces. It's the stage of wearing rose colored glasses when he or she "can do no wrong." Being in love doesn't exclude lust. In fact, lust can lead to love. However, real love, not based on idealization or projection, requires time to get to know each other. Here are some signs to watch for to differentiate pure lust from love.

SIGNS OF LUST
  • You're totally focused on a person's looks and body.
  • You're interested in having sex, but not in having conversations.
  • You'd rather keep the relationship on a fantasy level, not discuss real feelings.
  • You want to leave soon after sex rather than cuddling or breakfast the next morning.
  • You are lovers, but not friends.
SIGNS OF LOVE
  • You want to spend quality time together other than sex.
  • You get lost in conversations and forget about the hours passing.
  • You want to honestly listen to each other's feelings, make each other happy.
  • He or she motivates you to be a better person.
  • You want to get to meet his or her family and friends.
Another challenge of sexual attraction is learning to stay centered and listen to your gut in the early stages of being with someone. This isn't easy in the midst of hormones surging, but it's essential to make healthy relationship decisions. Here are some tips to help you keep your presence of mind when you're attracted to someone. This needn't pull the plug on passion, but it'll make you more aware so you don't go looking for trouble.

9 Inspirational lessons from Steve Jobs

1. Follow your heart
Almost everything, all external expectation, all pride, all tear of embarrassment or failure. These things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important.
Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked, there is no reason not to follow your heart.

2. Trust Yourself
You can't connect the dots looking forward; you cant only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something, your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down and it has made all the difference in my life.

3.Love what you do
Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do.

4. Go for a home run
Be a yardstick of quality, some people aren't used to an environment where excellence is expected. One home run is much more better than two doubles.

5. Pick Carefully
People think focus means saying yes to the thing you've got to focus on. It means saying no to the hundred other good ideas that there are. You have to pick carefully.

6. Work Hard To Make It Simple
Design is not just what it looks like and feels like. Design is how it works. Simple can be harder than complex. You have to work hard to get your thinking clean to make it simple.

7. Steal Great Ideas
We have always been shameless about stealing great ideas

8. Your Goal isn't to make money
Apple's goal isn't to make money. Our goal is to design and develop and bring to market good products. We trust as a consequence of that, people will like them, and as another consequence, we'll make some money.

9. Don't lose faith
Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith.

My September

Holla...........

I just notice that i have this one simple and not so cool blog, so i just wanna say hi.
Even though i haven't got many followers but it doesn't matter since i just need blank paper to write down whats overthinking in my head. Not so really special while checking, go through few years back reading what I have written, how time flies, how time passes by, how am I supposed to be being so grateful for what I have and I achieve so far. 

There's so many people out there not as lucky as I do, well human sometimes forget, human sometimes without they realize they humiliate them selves. I probably one of them.
I have this sort of long drawn dilemma about my life especially my job, what I do for living, carrier that I should not again pursue since my age is coming 32 tomorrow at 23rd Sept ( Yeeaaaahhh, i'm getting old ) -_-

I probably will get through this dilemma for my entire job (whatever it is)
Whats the point then ? What should I think ? What should I do ?

Quote : And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it --Steve Jobs--


Well, lesson to learn is The secret to accomplishing great things at work is to love what you do, keep taking the steps that will get you closer to a career you love.
The question ; Am I not to old to again pursue my career that i've abandon earlier ?
The career that probably already on top if only i'm able to act professional in my younger age at that time. Huuuuuffthh there is no use of regret, only lesson learned.

Gotta go now.. See you soon !! Smooch :**

The Greatest 28th years old B'day :)

Tak terasa 28 tahun berlalu dan setahun berlalu dr setahun yg lalu aku buat sekelumit cerita tentang My Beautifull 27. Meski keadaannya masih sama, masih sendiri tanpa pendamping hidup  sementara pria masa laluku sudah bahagia dengan wanita lain. Ya Tuhan, kadang ak bertanya adilkah semua ini..??
But in my 28 Bday i feel very greatfull meet with someone, someone yang sampai detik ini masih belum bisa ku yakini bisa jadi pendamping hidupku lg.. Ya Allah, di umurku yg ke 28 ak hanya berharap bisa menemukan seseorang yang mampu menjalin hubungan bersamaku. Dalam segala hal yang ada...........
Nyaris tak dapat lg aku berkata2 , ak hanya ingin kehidupanku membaik, demi anakku,kluargaku dan diriku sendiri...
Thanks for my parents, my beloved son.... my beloved Bee.... for everything..


Ps : Tulisan lama yang tidak di publikasikan :))